I'm free now

I guess I'm just too young and spontaneous to settle down right now.I want to get out in the world and have fun.I want to make art and clothes and music and films and books.I have a feeling though that this will always be the way I am.Maybe I'm not made for relationships period.After only four months of being love I suddenly feel nothing, no attraction towards this person.It's all about realizing what's good for yourself,instead constantly trying to save other people's lives.In the end it was a learning experience and I feel like I know much more about myself now.I don't regret anything,it was all for the better and we had amazing moments together.

Royksopp - Only This Moment

Only this moment
Holds us together
Close to perfection
Nothing else out there
No one to guide us
Lost in our senses
Deep down inside I know our love will die

Only this moment
Holds us together
Lost in confusion
Feelings are out there
Scared of devotion
Doubting intentions
Deep down inside I know our love will die

Stay or forever go
Play or you'll never know
What heaven decided
You can't deny it's
All you've been waiting for

Stay or forever go
Play or you'll never know
Your spirit's divided
You will decide if i'm
All you've been waiting for

Clouds in my head have been parted with grace
By the voices of an angel revealing her face
and her words they make sense 'n' I do understand
Falling in love isn't part of a plan

Forces within me mix reason with lust, but
I'll try to accept it and not make it worse
'cause I know I might loose it by taking the chance,
(But) love without pain isn't really romance

Only this moment
Holds us together
Close to perfection
Nothing else out there
Always beside her
Trusting my senses
Deep down inside I know love will survive

Only this moment
Holds us together
Close to the other
Nothing else out there
Always beside her
Trusting my senses
Deep down inside I know love will survive

Rainy Days

Such a nice lazy day. I've spent the whole 3 hours that I've been awake lounging around in a Christian Dior robe and snuggling with the boyfriend. Lately I've really been missing my best friend Ashley though. We had such good times together. Now she lives in Philly,what a shame huh? Can't wait to get home and start doing some art and watch my Netflix movies.Yay. I need to be prescribed Soma.Seriously.I'm a little worried about my friend Ingrid who met up with a guy from L.A. last night and still hasn't called or answered her phone.

60s French pop stars and actresses

I have the worst obsession with french women from the 60's. I'll show you why:

Brigitte Bardot:






France Gall:





Anna Karina:





Francoise Hardy





Currently listening to: Nouvelle Vague

Indulgence feels so good

What better way to wake up than with a cup of coffee and a cigarette? It's a beautiful day outside but I have so many things to do today that will keep me inside. Is it bad to have an art show scheduled for this month and still have 15 pieces to do? Oh well, I'll take my mind off of these worries by absorbing myself in fashion and music as always. Listen to Adult. and look at these photos of gorgeous alien model Olga.

Currently annoyed with Sienna Miller.

Currently listening to Noirfluo.

Currently bored with but still liking Irina Lazareanu:

Favorite song right now: "I'm not a Juvenile Delinquent" by Frankie Lymon and the Teenagers

Favorite band right now: Electrelane

What I want:

Maria Francesca jewelry:

Cavalli mirror bangle:

Do me Fellini

Just finished watching "City of Women" by Federico Fellini. Must say it wasn't my fav Fellini film but nonetheless quite interesting, considering use of metaphor. There was a fantastic scene though where teenage girls dance strangely to amazing music and then harass the star by chasing him down the road in their cars. If you're into anything surrealist or slightly so you must go out and rent "Blow Up", one of my favorite Fellini films. Jane Birkin and Verushka also make appearances in the movie and the mod fashion is to fucking die for. Anyway, had a fantastic day with the boyfriend. Ate Chinese and did a couple shots of sake and then came home and fell asleep at around 6:00. How bizarre that I [the night-owl] could wake up at 2 in the afternoon and fall asleep 4 hours later? Oh well, I'm up now at 1:36 in the morning. Stephen and I quit smoking today, well started to wean ourselves off. I've only had 2 cigarettes all day. I want one sooooo bad until I think about the wrinkles I'll have when I'm 30.

"Blow Up"







Currently listening to Mad Decent
Currently obsessed with:

This haircut:



This model[Lara Stone]:




this model[CocoRocha]: